Jax Attax

Is it possible to be too forgiving? I’ve been told that it is so and that I am guilty of this affliction. I have been betrayed/disappointed/hurt by people, as I assume everyone has, and I am certain that I have also returned the favor. So I wonder, what is the cut-off for absolution? How does one measure a pardonable offense? Forgiveness is not about forgetting – it is not the same as saying “that’s okay”. It is about understanding and compassion. We are all human and make mistakes and feeling sorry is a valid emotion. My merciful approach is quite selfish. In order for me to have power over my life and to move forward, I require a resolution. In some cases that involves carrying on and pretending that nothing happened. In other instances, it means leaving something or someone behind, altogether. Either way, the truth is always looming. What brought me to this point today was the realization that there are things and people that I have not actually forgiven. In my rush to find closure, I made justifications and allowances that were not entirely genuine, no matter how much I wanted them to be or tried to make it so. I strive not to wallow.  I aim to be honest with myself and not to sell myself short.  Sometimes I fail.  Perhaps the hardest to forgive is oneself.