Filed under: Day-to-Day
Are people oblivious, careless or just plain cruel? Sometimes I wonder if that distinction is even important, given that one can never really be certain of the truth. It makes me angry when people do not take responsibility for their actions. If there is one thing that I am upfront about, it is the fact that everything that sucks in my life is my own fault. I’m not always sure how I went about making such a mess, but I gather that one half of my life involves doing something wrong/stupid and the other half is spent trying to fix it/clean it up. I wish other people would own up to the same thing - maybe they aren’t so screwed up as I am but I’ve been told that everybody makes mistakes. The thing is, I hate when you know that someone has done something to you, either directly or indirectly, that hurts; and whether or not it was done intentionally, there can be little doubt about how it will make you feel or what your reaction will be. My philosphy has been, and remains, that the “oops, I didn’t realize at the time” defense is purely pretense. It’s a not so passive, passive-aggressive maneuver. I just want to reveal to the world today something that you probably already know - you are not fooling anyone. I would prefer people simply embrace their meanness and stab me right in the heart, as opposed to stabbing me in the back.
