Jax Attax

Nearly two weeks into my year of being 30, I am feeling pretty great. There is no good reason for it and the only thing I can figure is that the accomplishment of turning 30 has given me an unexpected sense of pride and, oddly, entitlement. Suddenly I am hyper-aware of all that I have to offer and I am openly giving myself some credit. I believe that my greatest happiness and success is yet to come. I’m wondering why I spent so much of my youth being underwhelmed by myself. There have been challenges and a few missteps to overcome - I’m not saying that I’m God’s gift to anything - but, I am finally ready to admit that I am proud of ME. I have worked so hard for everything I have achieved in my life. Many things have yet to come to fruition, but time seems so relative to me now. If there is anything that I can say, after 30 years of existence, it is that I have done my best to become the best human being that I can be. I have had a lot of love, a fair amount of privilege, and a little bit of guts to carry me through. It still bothers me that some people just don’t GET IT. But I think by the time I reach 40, I might finally have figured out how not to care!